I'm so sorry I'm not what you expected,
Never quite alive I see the false life you tried to lead,
I'm making smiles that never last,
Annoying people I know it's bad but I can't help but feel so sad,
They were almost glad to see the maddest part inside you,
I never gave the satisfaction of seeing my reaction.
I'm so sorry I exist,
Am I worth it?
It almost makes me frown,
But the hardest part of this,
Is knowing I won't be missed,
Even though you say those words,
Those words so lovely to my ears,
Sounding like a harp that hits my heart,
Yet I can't help but fear,
These words aren't real,
I feel disturbed unnerved,
This life of mine so absurd.